Meaningless.

I have an exam,tomorrow. And,unexpectedly I am feeling a bit down. As if,there is something which no longer exists,but,is there always to remind it's absence. That's not too beautiful to feel about,you see. Especially when you don't have any chance to blather about it all.. There're a few people we love the way we don't love others. We just never realise what made them this special and I bet they too never realised this SO they never paid any sort of attention to it. Too funny is that. Our lives are of parts. Parts of loving.meaning and rejecting.. and of priorities.. You stand at a corner and realise how there're many things,many other things much more prior to you,your existance.. And you could not cry like a child,yell out the pain of rejection. You can't even forget what has happened.. It stays with you as long as you stay with yourself... We all have reasons to move on but you know we don't really move on. Since,we all are different. Not fishes of the same water. Though,staying is meaningless and moving is stagnant... Just too stagnant.

Forever.

I miss to be with you forever. So longer a time that never would end. As bright as the skies are bright over us. As dark as our grieves are to be faced,rarely. Unnoticed but felt every moment. Hidden and seen being more than unseen. You have been a part of my world. You have been life to my still words. You have been a poem to me. A poem that rhymed in my silence. You have been a light that glowed my darks. Forever. I fear the truth that you're gone, NOW. And,as you're gone. The bright won't be mine, NOW. My silence would one day than kill my words. My words are going to be too still to notice. As you've left,NOW. And I realize every moment that you've left,FOREVER. No come back. NOW,that I realize,that I believe another failure has won me. Forever. You're going to be with me,SO,as to be forgotten.. Only, now that I realize.. You've been blessed to me to be another failure. And to be forever..

Unnecessary.

When I got up to write,I was down. Down by many things,many rude things. And I was going to jott down some very,as in very rude and brutal realities etc etc over here. Yes,because I'm this emotional at times. *winks* So,where was I! Yeah,all the past things I planned to do earlier. But,here comes the twist in story. I logged in Facebook first and there,my lovesters, my Nidzay, my Maryam, changed my mood without knowing it actually. So,pretty undecided and unknowingly and suddenly I feel like dedicating this post to these two lovesters of mine. =P =D

Err.. I never wrote a love-oozing-post ever before. SO,no idea or experience that how do you actually express your love again and again for the very person *yawns* =P. Ain't that boring? Or just TOO boring?! Hehe.

I believe I'm supposed to write about them,yeah? Emm.. So, I met these two gorgeous ladies in college. We were just SO alike. Bored and yawnable to equal extents. =P And, I know even if we were not alike,we still would have sticked together,since the rest were too cool to be with us. LOL but TRUE. =P

Some Happy memories; we spent months and then years together planning How-to-bunk,when-to-bunk and then justifying Why-to-bunk. And,finally bunking two or three times TWO years ago. We're just too amazing. =P  

We were just too good at missing (intentionally =P) the overly expensive stuff with heads full up and a very properly and efficiently timed U-turns with congregation. See? We missed all the to-be-cool oppurtunities.

As, I was not really prepared to share my memories and that too on a serious note =P I think I'm done with it.

On a very serious note. Life is just too beautiful. Value it's beauty. Even if it's momentary. There is always someone standing at any corner,any turn of your life to make you smile and forget the emptiness and way too entangled things inside you. Alhamdullilah! I love you,two! You pushed me towards a positive writing. =) <3

Truth is but a lie anyway.

A silent and a quiet evening I'm accompanied with,right now. I have alot of things,especially memories roaming in my mind right now and taking me back to somewhere I don't want to be,NOW. I think or I actually believe that I'm missing my best friend,A best friend I used to have,moments ago. Anything we lose,or anyone we lose can never be reffered to years or months or minutes,because we never lose them actually. They're always with us,around us and in us. We just try looking other sides of our lives more often SO as not to remember them,miss them and believe another failure..

Some things have no substitute. We believe we're done with this or that,NOW that's over. But,actually it's not. Our every memory,every failure lies inside us. Hidden beneath our ALOT of over-stuffed lies. By closing eyes bright is not dark in real.. At the end of the day,the truth,too,is a lie actually. The truth that I'm strong is the lie behind I'm not..


By looking away things just don't change JUST don't.