As a matter of fact!

You can not always fit and explain life in philosophical terms, right?! Sometimes, when you see, everything's there. And, you ask yourself, what I have been looking for?! The other day, when you glance back, you reckon so much has been missing, if not at outside than maybe at inside. But, things have been missing, somwhere. At some place, you ran after filling the blanks and failed pathetically. Actually, it sounds more pathetic when after 20 years of your life you sit down jotting stuff like this and actually start smiling or more like smiling wide at seeing how you have been running after nothing in particular and how you have your hands all empty, the blanks still the blanks. LOL. 

Money gives you nothing but it is the best revenge to take from your ownself and from that particular self who convinced you for self revenge! *winks* I often talk meaningless, this is how it looks like maybe. But, for me there's alot of meaning in it whatever I say. That's such a DUHHH thing, right?! Tsk. I'm wandering far off somewhere at the moment, side by side. Along writing. Yes, sir.

Erm.. So, it's like I'm not sleepy at all, tonight too. And. For a day like this, like today. For this sleepless thing, I don't mind it. Cause I got my imagination.

Long walks on long quiet roads are SO mesmerizing to me. *big dreamy eyes*

You can walk, stare at the sky as long as you can. The clear wide sky. You can talk to birds. You can see them fly, you can follow and wait for their one glance down. You can talk to Allah Mian. And WHAT NOT. My intense wali happiness lies in this very longing to go for such a walk. And. Well. You can also be get accompanied by some nice friend who can bear your all crazy talk, which in my case sounds kinda impossible, not easy to bear with me. =P

Anyhow. I feel talking alot at the moment. Alot more to share. But. Let's leave it for somethings should be kept in heart aswell!

They remaine valued only then.

But there are no come backs.

I wish life had a pencil,an eraser. We could change something,or erase something. Or never let something to be erased.. Because there are no come backs. Just no come backs... Every truth is just too rude to accept.. And at times we realize someone around us who we never wanted to lose, whose existence just held no substitute had finally left us and there's going to be no come back definitely  No matter how strong we pretend at inside to be.

And, as a matter of fact things keep on moving. Nothing stops. Nothing ceases.

Running alone.

I have been running alone,

too long now it's been,

the same way,

things never got changed,

they all got my substitutes,

someone better to be along with,

but,

no one to accompany me along,

I have been running alone,

too long now it's been.

I wonder if it hurts really,

or merely my deception pleads,

on dark longer roads,

I no long await for my bestfriend to come,

and we walk along,

for that was fairy tale world,

but, no real to breathe in,

I have been running alone,

too long now it's been.

Holding on those specials in my list,

and then taking in the truth of being no one in their list,

being no one to every one,

in the midst of everything,

all that breaks me down,

from feeling numb to trying to be me,

I no longer await to see, how it feels to be happy,

'Cause now that I realized,

I have been running alone,

in making things go,

trying to make them go..

Too long it's been now...

Just too long...