As I'm jotting this down, I have no idea what I'm going to come
up with. Or what I really want to say or recollect over here. I just
felt like writing, writing my heart out to some of you out there.. Who
definitely hold a very special place in my life.
For, I
have been wondering and wandering for a while or may be more than that.
Wondering how life can take a moment to change and wandering to see
those places that occurred all those changes.. I have seen relations
breaking, hence hearts breaking. Many a times welcomed by sheer darkness
and nothing else. And often by weird or even weirder desires. Hopes to
see someone back you know you won't get back at all, not just because
they don't want you but also because you don't mean more than just
"existing" to them. Story of every other person.. From darkness to
bright, it's all traveling and a journey from one failure to another
success or it might cost you another failure.. But, then. There comes a
point, you seek help from wherever You should have in the very first
place. You know, when you tell Allah Subhanau' wa' Ta'ala how broken you
are, and especially when you feel like grabbing someone from their
wrists and yelling out how you have been brutally broken into your own
emotions, how you have now starting hating your ownself, how you're all
just devastated and nothing else, but then that moment of realization,
that He, Allah, The Merciful, the one closer to You than your jugular
vein is listening to you even though when your words fail to make a
sensible meaning, trust me, there's nothing more beautiful than that...
Anything, any mark, any wound that can take You back to Him is
precious.. And you know, You, yourself is the bright end towards your
every darkest path you have ever taken, believe it. Do not run after
people to show you the light, you yourself are the light, and you know
why, Because You have Him, you have the light of the Heavens when You
turn towards Him.
As, I said, I am not sure how
I'm gunna conclude what I've started writing, I just went with the flow.
Kind of talked my heart out with you! :') Cause in the first place, I
felt the same.. Seek the power to fight within it, within You. You
behold it, not the people. accept the realities and then Request Him to
change them. What's impossible for Us, is nothing for Him.
" Aur Uski shaan tou ye hai k jabh Wo kisi cheez ka iraada kar leta hai, tou ussay farmaata hai Ho ja aur wo ho jati hai."
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